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Suzy
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| Late November | Wednesday |
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I can't believe my bud would do such a thing. Elsa, I mean.
She had an abortion. Oh, sure, I can under- stand that with all the
weird happs in her life, she thought it was like the right thing to do.
Having a kid with your bro ain't just uncool, it's wrong.
But so is taking such a little life. I'm frustrated and bummed out thinkin' 'bout it. I've come to the conclusion that there is no answer and we have to deal with that. And they put her brother in jail. What's freaking me out is that he's behind concrete walls not 'cause he made uno nino with Elsa, but 'cause he hit her when he found out that she wasn't going to have the baby. He wanted the kid real bad.
So Elsa ran away last night -- and if she doesn't come back, her bro goes
free.
I can't keep my feelings 'bout all this on the D.L. any longer. But who can I talk to? Not my Mom. She still thinks I'm a virgin. Ok, I'm not, but I only did it one time and I didn't feel cool 'bout it afterward. So maybe I am still
kinda pure and all. But I want to be with a guy again who
can make me feel happy...like Carlos?
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I'm not dealing with this whole scene -- I can't figure it out. So I meet up with Carlos--that's Elsa B.F.--and I ask, what's the deal? So he's all telling me that lotsa his homeboys want to get their girlfriends pregnant. "Why, Carlos?" I ask. "Don't you see, Vibe? We guys, we have this macho bandito image -- we can't share how we feel. And we don't know if we're going to be here tomorrow. " "So, whattup with that?" Carlos looks at me with his dark eyes way serious-like, and he makes me tremble when he says, "We want to leave something behind. A legacy of who we were." Then he looks at me like he's never seen me before, and I get all funny-like inside...and I'm scared. I know nothing's gonna happen 'tween us.
'Cause he's Elsa's boyfriend...
Happy Thanksgiving!
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